Off Kilter

I woke up today in Columbus, OH. I've never been here before. I have a 32 hour layover. I chose to do this trip because of the layover and in hopes to finally meet my favorite digital artist, a lady who I admire so much for her passion and love and work. Genevieve and I have been friends for almost 3 years via phone, text, IM, Myspace, Facebook and most importantly through art. I have 4 pieces of her work. One that wasn't for sell but my Rick had called her and convinced to her to put this piece for sale in a size that was insane. It's a poster sized picture of a battle that Genevieve constantly battles... her lungs. To me the picture is something that says, "this is me. there is hope." That's why I fell in love with the piece. Genevieve and I became friends around the time I was going through my divorce. I used to go to work in the morning, get my coffee, sit down at my desk and sign into my Yahoo chat. Genevieve would sometimes still have not slept since the night before creating a new amazing piece to show me that morning. She would ask my opinion on it. Most of the time the piece was perfect. Sometimes the piece would scare the hell out of me and I would tell her and sometimes she changed it to make it more subtle. Then we would proceed to pick amazing names for the pieces. It was my favorite part of my day. It helped me take my mind off my own problems. Genevieve also took a picture that my friend Stephen Boatright had taken of me and together the three of us created my favorite piece of art. The cover of my book. The final touch to a chapter I never wish to revisit.


I think it's the ugly weather in Columbus today that has me sitting here in a lump-like state. I was going through my friends status updates on Facebook and saw that my friend Nathan Lee has his album coming out on May 15. I will tell you that I will be one of the first to buy it. His music has and has always had a major effect on me. It's so raw, so honest that it makes you want to leave everything and do what you love. It's so intense that it makes your heart want to jump out of your body and go on an adventure of it's own.

I feel so lost today. I doubt it's because I'm in a new city. I think it's because I have so much time on my hands. I just read this book called Eat, Pray, Love. There is a part in there about how Americans don't know what true happiness is sometimes because we have to be constantly entertained and we can't just be in silence with ourselves. Usually I do ok with this but it wasn't always this way... and today is like old times. I can't sleep. I have no desire to do my studies, to read, to do my yoga, listen to my podcasts, work on my clients pages or go to the gym. I just want to sit in my 18th floor room and over look the overcast day and listen to U2, The Walkmen, Ryan Adams and I think I'm so emotional today that if I even played another Nathan Lee song I might burst into tears. Gosh, I'm such a girl today. I hate that. I'm glad I have the day off... I'd be a mess flying.

I need to pull myself together today by 4pm my time because I have a conference call to a new company in San Antonio that I was just hired to help. It's actually really exciting. Rick found an ad on Craigslist for a Myspace, Facebook, Twitter Guru. Being that I am that person... Rick forwarded me the link and I sent them an e-mail. I'm sure lots of people think that they are Myspace, Facebook, Twitter Guru's because they are addicted to social networking... but I take all of that to a new level. I've been making money off social networking sites for almost 3 years. Starting when Kevin Max's myspace mysteriously disappeared one night and he needed a new one ASAP. Ever since then I have a small problem dreaming and thinking in html codes. I love it. I love designing pages. I love taking ugly pages and giving them makeovers. So I had a meeting with this poster of the ad in Craigslist and it went great. Next thing I know I have been hired to re-do the pages for a 4 chain restaurant/pub in San Antonio... and to be creating a campaign to promote Aretha Franklin when she graces San Antonio with her R-E-S-P-E-C-T... then apparently after that there are quite a few more big artists that I will be working with, such as Crosby, Stills and Nash. Not too shabby for a girl who makes money off Myspace. :)

I think maybe I need some breakfast and a good work out to get my blood pumping to shake whatever is haunting over me today. I need a mood boost. If only the sun would come out. I hate that my moods can depend on weather. I feel a little helpless. I'd really like to sit by the pool in the sun and take a nap... who wouldn't?!

Well... I'm off to change my mood today.
Things you should definitely think about...
1) Buying Nathan's CD on May 15 and supporting indie music at it's BEST.
2) Pick up a new book. It doesn't have to be mine, if that's what you were thinking. :) Anybook... something that makes your brain think, opens new doors and gives you passion.
3) Check out Genevieve's art. Support indie artists. It's as good as a book. It will make your brain think and open doors and perhaps give you a passion. :)